5.27.2010

I think I'll move to Australia

I am having a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad….week…I think I’ll move to Australia.

I don’t have gum in my hair, and I do get to sit by the window in the car…but this has been a tough couple of weeks and a tough month.

I told Kyle the other day that I feel like I do 98% of what is asked of me in life. And I give 110% to do that 98%. All I get to hear about is that 2% I fail at.

Kyle said he understood and that he feels overwhelmed too. It’s not so much that I’m overwhelmed but that I feel cheated. I understand that I should be focusing more on the big picture but, obviously, it’s tough.

I live 30 minutes from the friends I’d like to be spending my time with. Even if I did live closer I’m not sure they’d be spending time with me. Yes, I’m probably being paranoid but no, I’m not going to impose on them. What hurts, is that it’s not so much relationships that I’m missing out on, but relationships I feel like my kids are missing out on. Since, I work and live so far away, my kid’s get the shaft.

Okay, fine, the fact that I don’t have these relationships hurts too. It helps to know my mom felt the same way when I was growing up.

I don’t get to be a mom with the other moms. My kids don’t get to play with the other kids. They don’t get invited to birthday parties or to the zoo. We don’t have play dates with families or BBQ’s in back yards.

I know, I know. Elle’s just 3 and Gabe is 1 ½. I’m happy our life isn’t filled with activities for them and we have each other. We have each other. That’s what we have.

I know it’s just me but my mom is in Colorado and I have no female I feel I can word vomit on or shoulder to cry on when I’ve had a bad Mother’s Day and subsequent 3 weeks. I know it’s just me because I know I have a few people in my life, but I don’t see it. I don’t feel it. I don’t feel like I could call a friend at 1 and they would be willing to listen.

I love my husband and he is there for me, but he is a guy. I’m very grateful for that. :) Sometimes girls just need their girl friends. Who are my girlfriends that are willing to help support me?

We all have families and they come first.

I guess it all comes back to 100/0. Living for the Kingdom means giving 100% and expecting 0% in return…as much as it hurts, that means for every one.

So even if I feel I am being cheated, maybe I am. Maybe I still am that loner from high school.

But me and my family…we’re loners together, and man do we have fun.

5.23.2010

Axel's is in the know

Today, Grandma Betty Stennes graduated.

To celebrate, Aunt Karen took us all to Axel's.

Today, Elle had no potty accidents and went poop in the potty at Axel's.

To celebrate, Elle yelled across Axel's entire dinning room that she went poop in the potty and NOT in her underpants.


Congratulations Grandma Betty and Elle Belle.

5.20.2010

Noodles Lunch Fundraising

Noodles Lunch Fundraising

Friday, June 11th from 11-3 go to Noodles in Eden Prairie, spend lots of money on lunch for you and your friends and 25% goes to our fundraising!

Let the cashier know you're there supporting Team Fight For Betty Boop, or contact us and we'll get you the magic 25% card. Tell everyone!

You can't go wrong. It's just after pay day, and CBH refrigerators are being cleaned out that night!

Noodles' Site

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Don't forget to join us for the Wii Olympics Saturday June 5th from 10 AM - 3PM!!!

5.17.2010

Bed Time

Saturday night we started an experiment called "Gabe in a big boy bed."  So far it hasn't been too bad.  It has provided some amusement for Kyle and I.

For example...

Gabe frequently crawls in Elle's bed and they "read" together.  Tonight, Kyle walked by their room to hear Elle say, "You're tooting.  You need to go sit on the potty."

:)

5.13.2010

Growing Gabe

Change of pace.  With Elle being at such a fun age with all the things she says, I usually have something to share about her.  Instead, I'd like to take some time for my Gaber Baby.

My baby boy that I was so scared of is growing up.  My baby boy that cuddles with me more than my sweet little girl is becoming a BOY.  My shy little one that is so quiet is speaking...albeit not coherently to most.  He still calls me "dada" most of the time though he's slowly figuring it out.  He will now say "osi" (outside).  His biggest word yet.

Last night, he put himself in time out...twice.

I look at his "little" hands and they aren't the little ones that curl around my finger anymore.  Now they smash my nose and eyes.  His tiny little butt that was so cute to pat, well he is a Ceass so he still doesn't have a put but now he sits on my face! Such a boy! 

I'll admit I almost cried when I found out I was having a boy because I was so scared.  Watching him grow, though, breaks my heart, but happily.  If that makes any sense.  Having a boy is COMPLETELY different than having a girl.  I've always admired those moms of boys.  How on EARTH do they keep up!?

Elle will sit quietly, mostly, and watch her princess movies or color.  Gabe runs around with a dragon, growling.

Somehow, my tough little boy softens my heart SO much more than I thought a boy would.

I love my Gaber Baby.


5.07.2010

If You Want Me To

This Mother's Day is already stretching me a little bit.  "If You Want Me To" by Ginny Owens is one of my favorite songs and has been wrestling in my heart and head.  So this Mother's Day...

"The pathway is broken and the signs are unclear.  And I don't know the reason why you brought me here.  But just because you love me, the way that you do, I'm gonna walk through the valley if you want me to."

"Cause I'm not who I was when I took my first step and I'm clinging to the promise you're not through with me yet.  So if all of these trials bring me closer to you, then I will walk through the fire if you want me to."
"It may not be the way I would have chosen when you lead me through a world that's not my home.  But you never said it would be easy.  You only said I'd never go alone."

"So when the whole word turns against me and I'm all by myself and I can't hear you answer my cries for help, I'll remember the suffering your love put you through and I will go t hrough the valley if you want me to."
"When I cross over Jordan I'm gonna sing, gonna shout.  I'm gonna look into your eyes and see you never let me down.  So take me on the pathway that leads me home to you and I will walk through the valley if you want me to."

Happy Mother's Day Moms